why do i keep messing this up?!

for the love - i feel as though i use to be the best little blogger around.  daily posts. daily comments. lots of pictures. updates one after the other... now, i am just rotten! my dear girlfriend, kayla, just mentioned something that she had read on my blog and it immediately reminded me that i haven't blogged in a long time ONCE AGAIN! I am going to have to set up calendar reminders or something.  It's not like i am so ridiculously busy that i couldn't possibly make it over here to talk... i just forget i suppose.  bad katie. bad.

moving on... so this is the week i am having my surgery! Thursday is the big day - yay! I plan on taking before and after pictures and if you guys are ok with it, I plan to share.  In a bathing suit top of course! no worries, no nude pictures of my chest... i have family that read this after all! (no worries, daddy. appropriate pictures & clothing articles ONLY) Needless to say I am getting pretty excited/nervous.  Not nervous about the actual surgery or the pain... i can handle that just fine.  More so i am nervous about a) all the meds making me sick and b) getting fat because i won't be running for a while. I haven't actually counted calories in a long time so i started that back up today.  I am hoping this forces me to watch what i eat while i don't have the opportunity to burn anything off like i normally do.  Yes, i know that i need whole, healthy foods to help speed up my recovery. I am not going to do anything drastic or harmful to my recovery process.  But i might just skip on chicken strips and french fries for a while... they are a weakness of mine. I cannot help it!

In all my nervousness about gaining back all the weight i tried very hard to lose, i ordered a workout video:  Pink Ribbon Program - Post-Operative Workout Enhancing Recovery.  Technically, if you want to be technical, it is made for recovery after breast cancer surgery BUT, the list of surgeries does include "implant reconstruction." That is me... yes? Anyways, there are four phases and I can start them asap! Yay me! I really am determined you guys to be back up and going in no time! So yes, the big day, as i said is this coming thursday, the 30th (HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANNIE!!) and i will have my mom and mother-in-love both here helping me out from Wednesday till Saturday/Sunday so i know i will be in good hands...

side note: the 30th is my surgeon's 40th birthday and he was going to reschedule because his wife wants to take him out of town but he has decided to leave right after my operation since i am going in at 8:30am.  in fear that he might rush i am baking him cookies and taking him a birthday card.  i am hoping he realizes that i am a super nice person and will want to give my new additions his undivided attention and not be distracted by the idea of getting the heck out of dodge.  here's hoping! if i come back all wombyjawed, you know why!!

This past weekend i went to Longview to visit my family while Bret had to work - i will post pictures about this later! (maybe if i say this i will remember to come back!)